doesn't matter

For those of you who are like me (at least how I used to be), Guruji did not look at me, he did not talk to me, he smiled at me, you know he looked at me 3 times today into my eyes, he did not reply to me, he turned his face away....this book newly released in Europe on Gurudev's birthday "Walking the Path" by Frederique Lebelley really helped(me), her experience with our beloved. 

Guruji loves everyone unconditionally, those who appear to be close to him are just people who are just header of the ships to carry forth the knowledge.  and this has been my recent learning even though it is always said and heard a million times, his love is unconditional, experiencing it is something different and understanding it through the head as well, as our feelings always keep changing...  So when you hear people saying you know this/that person is close to Guruji just disregard it as b.s.  Know that you are closer to your Guru, closer than the air near you, the closest possible is the Guru(Guru is nothing but your own self.  Guru, God and Self all one and the same as Amol Shende quoted, he is one of the rock stars of our Satsangs), no one can come in between you and your Guru, always keep this in mind. Jai Gurudev